Hello loves, ❤

I’m too nice. I’m too forgiving. I’m too much of a pushover.

I should have kicked you out of my world a long time ago, but for some reason, I keep allowing history to repeat itself.

You’ll screw up. Hurt me. Shatter my heart. Then I will swear to stop talking to you. I will attempt to cut you out of my world. I will decide that I deserve better than your poor treatment and promise to put myself first for a change.

Not long after that, you will apologize. You will show me a tiny bit of kindness and I will make a big deal out of it. I will convince myself it’s a sign you are going to change. I will force myself to believe the lies you tell about how you are sorry and are never going to stuff up again.

I will foolishly get excited about how maybe we can make things work this time — and soon after I will end up disappointed.

Every time I give you another chance, you blow it. You act like things are going to be different but it ends the same exact way every single time.

I don’t know how you can keep making the same mistakes over and over again without seeing yourself as the bad guy. I don’t know how a person can be so clueless. So selfish. So unaware.

Every time I give you another chance, you make me regret it. You make me feel like a complete idiot for listening to the words coming out of your mouth. After everything you have done, I shouldn’t trust you. I shouldn’t rely on you. I shouldn’t want anything to do with you.

But every time I think about leaving you behind, I feel guilty, which is ridiculous since there is nothing more I can do to salvage our relationship. I was the only one who tried to fix things. I was the only one who put in actual effort.

It’s hard for me to admit that you are not someone who belongs inside of my world anymore. You are someone who has overstayed their welcome. Someone whose usefulness has expired.

As frustrated as I am with you, I’m not blaming you for my heartache anymore. At this point, you’re not the one I’m angry with when you hurt me for the hundredth time. I’m angry at myself. It’s stupid of me to think you will ever change. I’m gullible. I’m too eager to believe what I want to believe.

I want things to work out between us. I want to keep you in my universe. But you’re making it impossible.

I have given you a million chances, so many more than you deserve, but it’s time to stop the cycle. I have to accept that you are comfortable the way you are. You are never going to set things right. Your promises mean nothing. Your word cannot be trusted.

Wherever you are in this world, have a lovely day ❤

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  4. You nailed it when you said “I need to stop the cycle.”
    It may take time to heal but its better than continuing your current path which is only resulting in disappointment, pain and wasted time.
    Sending lots of positive vibes your way and if you lived closer I would totally drop off some random kmart goods that would definitely have to include a fake succulent, a new throw, a nice big mug for tea and a couple of face masks to cheer you up 😉 x

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  5. Sometimes you have to leave people where they are, or wish to remain. So much suffering comes when we think others are capable of changing. They may do it for hot minute, but then they always go back to their true nature. 🤨

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  9. Don’t feel stupid for continuing to try to find the best in someone you love. It really will be his loss when you’ve truly had enough. It’s unfortunate that we keep putting faith in those that hurt us. Either one day the will realize their selfishness and make a change for the good or we’ll reach a point where we no longer have faith that they can change. Do what is best for you. You are worthy of love but love yourself as well.

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      1. What I learned was that you have no control over their actions. You can’t change them, they have to want to change. If they don’t then at some point, maybe when it’s too late they’ll realize the absolute beautiful gem they lost.

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