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Anxiety has one goal, and it’s to destroy people. And sometimes it does.

Anxiety takes away their ability to breathe and it makes you watch as it cripples them. But sometimes it’s sneaky. Sometimes it’s destroying a person and the scariest part about it is you have no idea that it’s happening. Because sometimes anxiety isn’t always as obvious as a person gasping for air as they struggle to breathe.

Sometimes anxiety is a person simply sitting there. It’s a person staring off into space as if they’re caught up in a daydream, when in reality; they’re suffering from their own personal nightmare. Anxiety isn’t always falling apart on the outside, even when you’re shattering on the inside. It’s racing thoughts and irrational fears that clutter your brain and sink your heart. It’s nothing that can be seen unless you live inside that person’s head and nothing that can be felt unless you feel that person’s heart.

Sometimes anxiety is a person lashing out at the people they love in an unexplainable rage for no apparent reason. It’s reacting out of anger instead of rationality. It’s snapping at people when that’s the last thing you want to do. It’s regretting the harsh words you said ten minutes later. It’s the tremendous amount of guilt you feel when you realize you can never take those words back. It’s dwelling on everything small and obsessing over anything that could happen and forgetting everything that hasn’t happened. It’s asking ‘what if’ constantly and only listing the worst possible case scenarios over and over again until you convince yourself the worst possible case scenario is the only scenario that makes any sense.

Sometimes anxiety is a person feeling paranoid even when nothing’s wrong. Anxiety is running back inside the house to turn off the oven that’s already off. It’s hitting the lock on your car doors three times before you’re convinced they’re locked. It’s over analyzing every word someone said, and constantly worrying everyone hates you. It’s going over every conversation you’ve ever had and the irrational fear that at some point you must have said or done something wrong. Anxiety isn’t trusting anyone, including yourself.

Sometimes anxiety is a person who pushes love away instead of letting love comfort them. It believing you don’t deserve love and even forgetting to love yourself. It’s the fear of losing everyone around you and never feeling good enough. It’s believing moments are too good to be true and experiencing fear when everyone else around you is experiencing happiness. It’s waiting for the next thing to go wrong even when everything is right. It’s never feeling at peace, and always feeling on edge.

Sometimes anxiety isn’t seen but it’s always felt. Even in a person’s best moments, anxiety is still there. Sometimes anxiety is gasping for air, but sometimes anxiety is a person laughing. Sometimes it’s a person speaking eloquently to a large group of people. Sometimes it’s a person showing you their passion, and sometimes it’s a person creating beautiful pieces of art. Because sometimes anxiety is taking over the last person you’d expect.

Sometimes anxiety terrifies everyone around us as we gasp for air and struggle to breathe, but sometimes anxiety can look like nothing, and not even the people we love the most can tell.

And that’s why anxiety is the greatest destroyer of all.

Wherever you are in the world, have a lovely day ❤

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119 Comments

  1. This is exactly what i needed to read. Sometimes its so hard. I know there are days where I’m so quiet during meetings and i dont speak up that someone assumes something is wrong with me. There has also been days were i have assumed someone is talking about me when it has nothing to do with me. Anxiety sucks.

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  2. Its true,anxiety can destroy life. It is the unseen enemy,not many noticed its presence,only the sufferer does. Its going to be a long-life battle with it. Great description and thanks for sharing! God bless you always

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  3. Anxiety can control so much of your life and you don’t even notice till you’re so far down the hole but you most definitely can come back.

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  4. wow this was such an amazing piece! I wrote a piece on anxiety recently but was written with a different approach. I included some tips on how I deal with it because sometimes coping with anxiety can be a lot harder than people think. I love to see the other ways people think and write about anxiety because it truly is such a broad topic that affects people in so many different ways. Your post really resonated with me. Keep up the good work!

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  5. This all hits way too close to home. I never really knew about anxiety until an acute episode I dealt with last fall. It’s really made me realize how much control it’s had over my life even when I didn’t know it was there. When I’d push people away but didn’t think it was a big deal. Never allowing people to get too close. Thank you for writing this.

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    1. I know exactly what you mean. I thought I just needed time to myself to heal, so I pushed my closest friends away. Weird the way what we need most, our brain is rejecting. So destructive.

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  6. the worse thing about anxiety is when the people we love expect us to always be calm, but when something is bothering us they act like we shouldn’t be acting that way

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  7. This is such a beautifully written post! My brother suffers from anxiety and when he first told me I didn’t believe him. I really just thought he was being rude, or extremely shy. I’ve since taken the time to educate myself and your words bring all of what I’ve read together concisely. Isaiah 41:10 says, “Do not be afraid, for I am with you.Do not be anxious, for I am your God. I will fortify you, yes, I will help you, I will really hold on to you with my right hand of righteousness.” I look forward to the time when anxiety, depression and many other issues are gone in God’s Kingdom. However, until that time comes, as a person on the outside looking in, I’ll be sure to be more patient and understanding. Thank you for painting a clear picture of those experiencing anxiety.

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  8. I really needed this. My anxiety can sometimes get the best of me and make me feel alienated. It is hard to put it into words for people who do not experience it. People often confuse anxiety with nervousness and might belittle it, but anxiety is a very serious issue. My anxiety can be so nonsensical, from me crying in the car because I am sure that I will get in a wreck and explode and die to me being unable to throw away a tissue in a classroom. Anxiety can take so many different forms and this display of the different mediums anxiety can travel through was extremely insightful. Great writing, great article. This helped me in ways I can’t describe.

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  9. I love how you wrote this & of course you sharing it is amazing. I have suffered with anxiety practically since i was a little girl and its one hell of a thing to deal with. I would find my self dazing off wishing about being someone else or wishing i didn’t stress as much as i did, i couldn’t understand why i was almost feeling like i was drowning on a daily. so happy i came across this it was so beautiful & helpful to read knowing I’m not the only one.

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    1. Thank you for your kind words ❤

      I can promise you, you are not alone! And, that is what this blog is about, sharing that we are not alone throughout this journey 🙂

      I can assure you there is light at the end of the tunnel ❤

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  10. Great post, I can totally relate. I have struggled with anxiety a big part of my life as well…

    The last time it was starting to get the better of me, I visited a therapist. She told me something that I believe has helped me ever since.

    Anxiety acts as our body’s alarm system: It is there to warn us when our mind believes something is wrong. Now, sometimes the alarm system may be broken, or may go off to easily, but the purpose remains…

    This has helped me to think that anxiety is not some kind of a curse I have had the misfortune to have, it is something with a purpose in our system, and although it may malfunction at times or overexaggerate, we should try to acknowledge it and accept it rather than hate ourselves for it.. 🙂

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    1. This is a very interesting way to describe anxiety. I love it.

      I, too, have seen a therapist a number of years ago to get a better understanding of my own anxiety issues. Reading your therapist’s explanation reminded me of the analogy that I was given:

      Imagine that your brain is a cup. It is completely normal and expected to have stress at any point in your life, so let’s say that ‘normally’, a cup would be half-full when holding on to daily stress factors. Now, someone who suffers with anxiety in their life is different. A ‘normal’ cup is, let’s say for example, 3/4 full when handling daily stress. It takes a lot less of extra stress for someone who deals with anxiety on a daily basis to overflow. These overflows are when anxiety attacks start to occur.

      That explanation was the first building block I needed to begin my journey to start gaining control over my anxiety.

      You also made a VERY important point…acknowledging and accepting your anxiety. Remaining fearful and hateful of your anxiety and the symptoms it forces on you, only strengthens the grip it has on you.

      Have a great day! God bless!

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      1. Thank you for your lengthly comment.
        I appreciate the time you took behind this ❤

        I love the way you've described this. I love this. I would love to look at anxiety this way.

        Acknowledging & accepting was VERY hard for me. It did take me a while, this was not an over night process.

        But, I have gotten there. I cannot get rid of it. I need to accept that. I need to live with it. & I need to acknowledge this lifestyle & live with it.

        The more anger I held within the more I feel suffocated ❤

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      2. Thank you for taking interest in my comment 😀 This, too, is another great way to see it… Analogies are always so helpful, they really allow you to get a grasp on the problem and materialize it…. Yes, I believe a big isuue with our anxiety, and an issue that is often not regarded as well, is the fact that we resent it so much… We live in a society where it is almost shameful, people keep reminding you how bad it is, how you must stop it, that it is harming your health, though they never tell you how… Everything that exists exists for a matter, so I believe the solution will come if we start learning to utilize it and harness it, rather than trying to dismiss it completely. Have a great day as well and always stay positive ❤

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      1. Hahah thank you ❤ Posts like these make me glad I have found this platform so we can share our views on topics we struggle with more & overcome them together.. 🙂 Stay strong… 🙂

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  11. Omg you just have written what anxiety is. Beautiful written post ❤ Anxiety is a demon but we can beath it even though it’s hard. Sometimes people don’t understand you because they aren’t feeling your intense feelings.

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  12. This is great. The “Sometimes anxiety is a person simply sitting there” part is so true for me. I feel that I can often come off as standoffish or rude when I really just can’t find anything to say and am going through worlds of self doubt in my mind for no reason at all. It’s a struggle that I’m slowly working through.

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