Hello loves ❤

As an anxiety sufferer, I tend to get anxious that my anxiety will push my partner away bc I am constantly questioning EVERYTHING. I am always asking questions, always over thinking, always over-analysing.

Do you ever feel this way?

I understand how you feel. Believe me, I do. Having anxiety makes you feel like everyone will leave. It makes you feel like you will never be good enough for him or for her or for anybody. It makes you question your every single move. And it makes you feel like you aren’t worthy. Of them. And of love.

But this is just your anxiety talking. It’s not all of you. I promise you, you are worthy. You are worthy of finding love. You are worthy of falling in love. Your anxiety doesn’t make you ugly. It doesn’t make you into a monster, even though it feels like it sometimes.

Anxiety is just a piece of you. A tiny part. It is not all of you. It is not your whole entire being and mind.

Your anxiety should not be an excuse. It shouldn’t stop you from looking for love. It shouldn’t stop you from going on going out, meeting people, giving people chances. Anxiety shouldn’t stop you from living your life.

I know you think you are broken. But where’s the beauty in being perfect? Where is the magic in being put together and polished? There is beauty in your brokenness. And there is beauty in your bravery.

You still deserve to find big love. You deserve to make someone’s life better. And you deserve to have someone else make your life more fulfilling.

Don’t let anxiety win. Don’t you dare let it have control over your heart. Don’t put your anxiety in first place. Don’t give it the power it demands.

You are someone who struggles with anxiety. But you are not ruined by anxiety. You are a human being with cracks and wounds, just like anybody else. You are a human being who overthinks and who bites your nails and who can go on downward spirals, but every single person on this earth is struggling too.

Anxiety is just a part of your story. It isn’t the whole entire book.

We all have something we are dealing with. We all are sad for different reasons. We all have broken parts. We all have bruises and scars from the past. We all have reasons to be afraid.

But, please, don’t be afraid that you will push him or her away. Don’t be afraid that your anxiety will make them leave. Don’t hold your breath, waiting for them to walk out on you.

If they leave you because of something you cannot control, they aren’t the person that you thought they were. And they don’t deserve to be a part of your life. They aren’t worthy of your big and beautiful heart.

One day you’ll find someone who won’t run. One day you’ll find someone who will love every part of you and yes, even the anxious and scattered parts. Don’t give up on this. Don’t give up on future love. And most importantly, don’t give up on yourself and your heart.

 

You are not defined by your anxiety. It’s just a part of you. It’s not who you are.

 

Wherever you are in the world, have a lovely day ❤

A, x (1)

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  1. I also have suffered with anxiety and panic attacks! it has been going on for years and has made ma struggle to sleep and I’ve missed out on a lot of things 😦 It helps me to know that I’m not the only one and that you can do things to help. I now have therapy and it helps a lot being able to discuss. I would really appreciate it if you would check out my blog or maybe contact me to give some advise or just talk? thanks
    -AB anonymous xxx

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  2. I remember suffering terribly from anxiety around age 8 or 9 up until my first year of college. It eats away at you so much and really kills your confidence, self esteem and worth factor. Definitely I encourage you to continue fighting because one thing that I learned is that it is all mental. In finding Christ, I was able to break free from that bondage of fear; fear of getting hurt and disappointing others. Actually have a bit of a general overview of my testimony posted on my blog page! If and when you have the time, I highly recommend you take a look at the content. Anxiety is very much real but so is the power of healing through God ❤️

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  3. Thank you so much for writing about this!
    As someone who struggles with anxiety, I’ve often worried that I’m never going to find love. Growing up, no guy ever wanted to go out with me. They always went for the girls who were loud and obnoxious. Sometimes it’s hard to have hope that there’s someone out there for me.

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  4. I can easily worry about the same thing with my anxiety, especially since my doctors easily get hung up on the fact I have anxiety over what we’re talking about. But whoever God has set aside for you… is coming to be there for you… and love YOU! God will look after you both, Miss Lovely! Me and God have faith in you both!

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      1. Sometimes I think God is just keeping life adventurous for us, as well as keeping us interested in our thinking. He’s helping us grow and appreciate who He made us to be! At least we can say we think things through “thoroughly”. LOL

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  5. I love this.

    And it is so true that if someone leaves because of your anxiety, they don’t deserve to be in your life.

    For so long I would sit in my house, afraid to leave, and think that no one could ever love me like this. But someone does… and he is wonderful and doesn’t suffer from anxiety, but guess what? He isn’t perfect either. And I love him for all of those things.

    Thanks for posting.

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  6. I’m crying over this post… I literally am… I am crying… This is something I have been struggling with ever since I have been having relationships… It has intoxicated my life… I feel like I am normal.. I feel like no one understands me.. It seems so easy for everyone else… I don’t understand why it has to be so difficult for me… It makes me almost hate myself… I keep setting up traps for my own happiness and I don’t understand why. Thank you so much for this post, really… This has been one of the very, very, very few times I have felt like anyone has understood what I feel like… And there’s nothing more important than feeling like you are understood. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

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    1. Firstly, you are not alone ❤
      Alot of people feel the same way as you do.
      We just try so hard for this to be perfect but along the way we tend to overthink everything as well.
      We are the best lovers, bc all we want is the best for our partner & never want to see them sad or upset.

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  7. “But where’s the beauty in being perfect? Where is the magic in being put together and polished? There is beauty in your brokenness. And there is beauty in your bravery.”

    – Yes, indeed. There is always a beauty from pain. When we are in pain, we can’t see the beauty yet. But when it is all over, a big smile will form in our lips… Great work… More power!!!

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  8. I relate to this and if you have been judged for being an introvert or having a lot of past trauma it makes you want to isolate more but then you are also dealing with angry feelings. I am never sure if its a justified fear (of being with or rejected by others) or if i am projecting and making excuses for a fear that is irrational. Does that ever happen to you?

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