Hello my loves, ❤

Wow, this year has nearly come to an end, I cannot believe that 2017 is almost over & we are about to step foot into 2018.

This was a big year, in many ways – great things, crappy things, conquering goals etc.

This year was hard in so many ways but it also could have been worse so I can’t say it was a ‘bad’ year but it definitely had more downs than ups. It had more heart breaks that I expected. It wasn’t the year I hoped for. I actually fell short this year. I didn’t check off all the items on my bucket list like I did last year. For some reason, this year was flat and draining. Maybe I am being too harsh on myself, okay okay, maybe I am – I conquered a lot of goals this year so I am thankful for that.

But I learned something valuable this year. I learned the lesson that the universe has been trying to teach me all along but I was too stubborn to listen.

This was the year I learned how to depend on myself. This was the year I realized that romance doesn’t always mean forever. This was the year I learned that I better find a way to always make it on my own because sometimes you are your own best friend & you need to save yourself.

This was the year I learned that I need to get back up because I can’t get lazy and I can’t make temporary decisions anymore because I’m waiting for something else to happen.

This was the year I had to stop waiting. This was the year I learned that I have to work on every little part of myself. This was the year I learned that pain will never leave me alone but I have to learn how to smile. I have to learn how to wake up and find something to look forward to. I have to learn how to walk hand in hand with pain instead of trying to run away from it.

This was the year I learned that healing is not a phase, it’s an ongoing process. It’s a work in progress. It’s something you have to keep doing every day and every night because the pain might resurface and you’ll make the same mistakes again.

You’ll get heartbroken again. Someone you love will disappoint you. You will fail at something you thought you were good at. You won’t always get what you wished for and as long as you’re still alive and breathing, you’ll have to figure out a way to make it — alone.

So nothing major happened this year, nothing extraordinary but this was the year I learned that I’m the only who can heal myself. I’m the only one who can save myself. I’m the only one who can make myself smile when things are going wrong and maybe one day I’ll learn how to make them right, but for now, I’m learning how to live with the wrongs, the mistakes, the disappointments because they won’t just go away. They won’t magically disappear.

This was the year life tried to break me into pieces but instead of asking for help or trying to find answers from people. I looked within. I came up with my own answers. I trusted myself for once, not in my decisions, but in my ability to overcome whatever life decided to throw at me and that made all the difference.

 

Wherever you are in the world, have a lovely day ❤

A, x (1)

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19 Comments

  1. Great post! For me, this year also had its ups and downs. I’ve been let down, experienced rejection, but I’ve also experience great thing such as accomplishments, love and finding my passion in starting a blog. Thank you for your post. Lets hope that we will make 2018 the greatest year yet!

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  2. I’m still learning that I need to take initiative on make not wait on something to happen. It’s up to me to make things happen and create them. I need to create the conditions for the life I want to live and not wait for them to happen. If I wait for all the lights to be green then I’ll be waiting a very long time. Thanks for sharing

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  3. Hopefully your year next year is better and you conquer what you set out to. I’m not one to be about New Years resolutions etc. I think as long as we improve in our goals and our lives we can say we have had a successful year. Me and my wife have been going through infertility and this year has been a rough one to say the least. We are definitely hoping we have a better year next year and hopefully add a baby or two along the way! Not sure if you are religious or not, but know you were created for purpose, you were made for more than just existing. I have found this out that even through failure and heartbreak we were meant to live for so much more than just punching a time card through life. I hope this encourages you.

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    1. Thank you for your comment ❤

      I pray the next year I conquer & experience more.

      Yes, its all about improving ourselves both mentally & physically. Being at our best, always 🙂

      I am most certainly religious, thank you for sharing your thoughts ❤

      I pray 2018 is filled w/ love & babies for you & your wife ❤

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